Freewrite

Bright Eyes - The First Day Of My Life, Fall Out Boy - Sugar We're Going Down, Jack White Wayfaring Stranger.

here is a time to be the kid I always wanted to be. I looked though it from a tellascope to see the stars but all I saw was dust. Dust that could not be wiped off How could they behave in the manner that took only a matter of time. I want to see history repeat its self as it did in the past. Hey, remember that time we could only see so much though the fogged windows? I do and I remember the look on your face. If you could only seen the way I felt about you. Driving with the windows down in the middle of january. The cold breeze felt so good. i thought about the times spent with out you and I only want to relive the past with you. I could not relive the past with you now.... but soon I could. Soon, my dear we will not have to worry. I think about you, do you think about me? I thought about kiling myself. No really, I contemplated it one too many times. I felt that if I could just spen one more night that maybe it wouldnt matter that I would only want to spend a lifetime with you. I met another women the other day. She invited me in for coffee but I declinded. I talked to her the other day and she ended up be a fucking whako. She got mad that I didnt call her. I told her that I only wanted to fuck her. So, while I took the time to look up your address, I wanted to send you a chistmas gift. I spent a good time at the mall and decided that you deserved more then something I could buy at the mall. I partied last night. maybe a little too much. I woke up in a ditch and it wasnt in front of my house. Why is this hard to get past? I thought and then I figued I thought too much. Here is a thing for you, I am not sure what they call it. Maybe its a keyboard but I can not see... I lost my eye sight the other day and I believe its because I lost you. See, that wasnt so bad. My eyes really do hurt, but you knew all along that I wasnt blind. But how must I continue with out you? Will I ever really find someone? Here and now I found nothing before me to see a difference that makes me know. I and them and when its apparent that I cant type no more then I will bleed all over this keyboard and sue you. But thats only when I am blind from all the dust being lifted into the air. Ha, thats all she said. When I confornted her about the other guy she merely told me that its just that... nothing more and nothing less. But how? How can you? I loved you when we met and now I dont love you, but I do love you. Dont confuse me missy... she hates it when I call her missy. Wouldnt you? so there